boring day!

hmm.. today is sucha boring day for me.. due to the quarrel wif my mum.. dare not ask her tat i wanna go out today.. hmmm.. so slept till around 11? forgot le.. haha.. den slack lo.. play maple.. hmmm.. today jus a boring day… after tat around 4 plus lucky my didi call me for dinner.. den my mum came home at 5++.. phew~ omg.. almost thought of going out.. den after tat go eat wif my mum and didi.. hmmm.. yupz.. got better wif my mum le.. neways.. tink i eat too heaty food today.. now sore throat liao.. =/
crap man.. hmmm.. den after tat went shopping.. haha.. in the end made a new specs.. its a half frame one.. actually wanna make a nerd nerd specs to try.. den is like.. hmmm.. not very nice leh.. den frameless is like i play sports den later specs spoil again.. so… mum say dun waste money.. in the end make half frame.. lol.. den onli 7th jan den can take.. =/
hmmm.. den come back lo..


hmmm.. in this world there are so many love… brotherly and sisterly love… friendship love.. family love.. hmmm.. and lastly.. BGR love.. hmmm… its so complicated.. neways.. bible did state bout love.. so…. haha.. hope i can do tat… neways.. now.. “he” will only be my brother in christ and brother for life and nutting else… hmmm.. for tat special person.. hmmm.. hope i will certain my feelings? im trying too.. =)
gonna go sleep soon.. there’s gonna be a new yr count down! yahOO! =D
nitez nitez…!






*ciao*

*sick*

hmmm… din blog for quite long coz many things had happen.. hmm.. yup.. quarrels wif my mum.. and she spoke quite serious.. and FIERCE! hmmm.. den cried myself to sleep la.. tats y i become sick! haha.. hmmm.. wake up feeling so uncomfortable.. feeling hot and my brain was like so heavy and giddy.. hmmm… but den.. i still went for the cca fair.. jus take med and dun care la.. haha.. den afternoon make lunch for my bro b4 i leave the house.. so big liao still wan me do.. haha.. hmmm.. den prepare myself to go to skool le.. hmmm.. reach there rite.. got the stupid uncle again.. -.-
say i dye hair cannot go in.. crap man.. not like dye hair is lian or beng wat.. =.=
in the end went to buy the hair spray wif xj and bonnie accompany.. haha.. hmmm.. bonnie so damn cute loh.. =.=
wan to get things den duno where to get.. hmmm.. she spray for me till my face oso black black.. =/
lol! den go wash.. the stupid smell oso choking me man.. haha.. hmmm.. the spray suck man! neways becoz needa get into the skool den must spray.. =/
go in skool saw my didi perform.. haha.. so smart is he.. haha.. see him wear long pants can see tat time really flies.. haha.. yupz.. now im still sick.. feeling not so good still tho.. hmmm.. tink gonna maple soon or wat la.. haha.. okie dokie! gtg..






*ciao*

DepresseD anD stresseD

deleted the stupid stuff of ytd.. haiz.. quarrel again.. im really tired.. mentally tired.. trying so hard to please ppl but i tire myself out.. im sad.. very sad.. i dunno wat to do.. i hate hurting ppl.. ppl say i must be mean abit.. so after awhile they might jus find a new one.. but i dunno y i jus hate it to be mean to ppl.. so sometimes i will jus be quiet and dun talk.. coz later i hurt ppl.. haha.. but some jus dun understand.. keep wanting me to say out things knowing tat it will hurt and still ask.. i jus feel no one understands me at all.. my mum say my body language cannot bluff her eyes… tml i really class gathering she dun believe.. damnit.. say i got so many activities y cant stay at home.. i thought after O’s i can have more freedom or space to go out wif frens.. but guess wat.. its still the same.. there’s so many things happening.. i dun tink im able to cope soon.. when i seek God.. i guess im too angry to feel his presence.. feeling really sad tat he’s not there to comfort me… i find no peace in my heart when i seek for Him.. haiz.. totally stressed up.. i tink i should have my own personnel blog.. haha.. so tat can really be my journal.. i guess im gonna get 1 soon.. and leave this blog to death.. haha..


ytd was jus a crap day of my life.. today as well.. but today was slightly better.. watched the chronicles of narnia.. great show reccommended! hmmm.. yupz.. den go orchard wif church frens.. =)
hmm.. had dinner wif my bro but its a shitty one as well.. quarrelled over the phone and my bro spilled the 2 cups of coke.. can control my temper den shouted my bro a lil.. but i knew it wasnt really his fault so i speak nicely to him.. but things got worse.. i know he need someone to talk to.. and he is my bro.. so i told the person tat i will call later.. i even said so many please.. haha.. i cant believe i really did tat.. coz i heard my bro saying “i dun wan talk to u already.. stop saying please..”
he sound quite angry.. i tink the person i quarrelled wif din realise eh? haha.. i will put my family first.. but i wont reject the person so mean.. so tats me.. stuck in the centre again.. haha.. in the end my bro dun wan talk to me.. eat halfway dun wan eat.. tell him its ok but dun listen.. in the end wanna give me his food.. jus ate the fries onli.. too angry to eat.. since he wanna go home let him be.. i take my bag and leave the place… jus walk out onli.. den he oso angry walk home.. i din know at all.. b4 take bus sms him ask him go home.. on bus i called him.. no one pick up.. call him 5 times altogether.. damnit.. trying to keep my patience.. reach home saw him going to shower.. sian.. scare the hell outta me.. sian.. okies.. tat bout it.. gtg le..





*ciao*

BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!

yay! blessed christmas to everyone! hehe.. hmmm.. now den i start to blog.. ytd i was so damn tired.. lol.. no more energy to switch on the com to blog.. okies! lets start wif ytd…

24th dec
ytd was christmas eve and u are suppose to spend ur nite wif ur close ones? haha.. but my dad dun celebrate christmas… my mum in KL still and my kor in genting.. hmm.. so went out to celebrate wif someone special! =)))
yupz.. hmmm.. watched KIGN KONG! ROAR~~~ =X
haha.. yea.. lol! quite an interesting show.. but some parts are jus too boring.. =/
and after watching.. time is 7PM! hmmm.. tats fast eh? haha.. so we went to ariport to eat BK! hehe.. as usual.. mushroom swiss for me.. haha.. hmmm.. and b4 show bought exchange gift already.. lol.. thx God i got my pay.. haha.. hmmm.. so there’s gift! haha.. yupz.. after tat went to viewing mall to see aeroplane.. =X
haha.. till around 12 go take bus le.. lol! hmmm.. had an enjoyable nite.. hehe.. thx alot! =)))
come home going to around 1 le.. so damn tired.. >.<
and tml got church.. hmmm….


25th dec
MERRY CHRISTMAS MERRY CHRISTMAS MERRY BLESSED CHRISTMAS TO YA!!!!!!!!!!
yay! merry christmas.. hehe.. hmmm.. jus finish church today.. back home packing things b4 my mum come home.. haha.. but in the end im blogging.. hehe.. yupz.. lol.. hmmm.. receive quite a number of pressies! hehe..

pressie received! :
necklace – special someone
sleeveless top – aunt reb.
purse(sort of la…) – aunt gina
hp accessory – coach
chocolates, sweets – christina, emmellyn, victoria
candle – charmian

yupz.. hmmm.. quite alot yea? haha.. but i bought christmas gift forgot to bring.. >.<
hmmm.. how how.. bad man.. later gonna go to my shi yi house le.. going wif my cousin.. hehe.. coz its nat’s bday.. yup.. on christmas.. so cooL~
haha.. neways.. this means more pressieeessssss!!!!! haha.. okie dokie… gtg now.. shall update tonight…. i hope………….. haha..

*updated*
okie dokies! im back from my shi yi’s place.. go there celebrate my cousin bday… got pressies again.. haha.. got a book from my shi yi.. “the power of a praying woman”.. hmmm.. haha.. dunno y my shi yi bought tat for me.. haha.. neways den my xiao yi bought a beanie calendar for me.. =.=
neways.. come home wrap pressie for my mum for my cousin one den open my pressie for christmas liao.. lol.. i know im a badie.. =X
but…….. the pressies are jus too unresistable.. lol.. cant wait for tml to box the pressies.. hehe.. neways! gtg le.. watching vampire show~~~ wooo~~ haha.. late and tired but still must watch!

*ciao*

@.@

yea.. tats how my eyes will look like now.. see wats the time now when i blog.. its CHRISTMAS EVE already! >.<
crap! neways! today i woke up at 625.. i slept LESS THAN 6 HRS!! oh man.. how to reccuperate.. i need my sleep.. den i got to know tat i confirm 29th to 1st jan working at expo again.. but i tink my cousin wont be around to accompany me.. crap! >.<
hmmm.. den mum left for KL till 25th dec! yaHOO!! can late go home le.. hmm.. sort of late la.. b4 12 i mean.. coz i still needa tink of my younger bro.. cant stand my mum.. every sms she send me half of it will be asking bout my didi.. hmm.. actually i knoow y as well actually.. coz i tink when he sec 1 or 2? he scared till he become a different person totally.. was shock and did not know wat to do actually.. hmmm.. so my mum was asking me to always take care of my didi.. hmm.. a cute face he has but a quite rebellious behaviour but still, he has his kind soul to help me wash the clothes today.. tats very happy for me already.. but he onli wash the guys clothes.. =.=
stupid washing machine so small.. =X
haha.. hmm.. den workat NUS HIGH SCHOOL.. omg! if u wanna see the real nerds around i tink u can try visiting their skool.. man! they jus totally NERDIES! =X
ok tats meanie of me i know.. but they are really nerds u see.. their pants wore at the height of their belly button and the shirt tug in till so short.. >.<
well well.. ill stop the meanie me already.. okies! the calculator was so damn xXx! can u imagine a calculator worth 252 bucks?! and the parents there were like……. so ricH! they din mind paying so much for it! gosh! crazy parents.. >.<
hmmm.. god exp. actually.. haha.. hmmm.. den went to visit my mama le.. promise to visit her.. hmm.. she start to have lots of probs again… i can see tat when she talk to me… hmmm.. jus pray hard she dun go tink so much.. hmmm.. after tat go to church le.. hmm.. had great time there actually.. haha.. watched the show “left behind 2″..
quite scary actually.. bout the anti-christ and all.. hmmm.. walk by faith and not by sight.. can all christians do tat? i tink my faith needs building actually.. hmmm.. neways i tink im gonna gb soon.. fren ask me play.. nitez nitez..





*ciao* @.@

GOSH!

i cant believe its 1207 and im not alseep.. know y? coz tml i needa wake up at 620.. sian.. crap! got less den 6 hrs to sleep if i blog den i shower den go sleep.. =.=
sian.. neways! today slept till 1035 den wake up.. haha.. din go for jog coz ytd was feeling tat im sick and charmian getting not enough sleep recently.. so.. haha.. din go! hehe.. waking up quite late for this 2 days.. lol.. and i dun understand y as well yea? haha.. but tml needa wake up so early leh.. hmmm.. neways got tempo job from my cousin again.. haha.. work from 29th dec to 1st jan.. hehe.. den 3rd jan den start work….. hehe.. so at least there is osme income for me still! hehe.. neways today slack till afternoon den go visit my mama.. hmmm.. can see tat she’s getting better and better each day.. =)
hmmm.. stayed there till around 830.. >.<
yupz.. den go my ah ma house lo.. haha.. went there to take dinner.. den go home around 11.. sian.. there’s so many probs around and my tiredness is making me grouchy sometimes.. hmmm.. help me man! >.<

gtg liao la.. hmmm.. needa shower den sleep le.. nitez nitez..






*ciao*

*stress*

hmmm.. getting stress up actually.. coz its CHRISTMAS soon! haha.. yupz.. got no income.. =/
spent all my working money on shoe.. omg.. should not have bought it.. but im happy i bought it coz it looks cool~! >.<
haha.. yupz.. sian.. hmmm.. got GEL youth celebration for christmas on 23rd.. hmmm.. lucky i bought the gift liao.. hehe.. wonder wat ill be receiving for christmas from ppl.. =X
haha.. hmmm.. gonna start work on 3rd JAN.. so long way leh.. no money.. some more working at bras basah complex.. sian.. alone……. no one accompany.. haha.. jus hope i know wat to do.. lol.. okies! lets talk bout today.. today woke up at 1140.. hehe.. first time wake up so late during the past weeks.. hmmm.. oso dunno y my bro off the aircon i still can sleep.. first time man! =X
haha.. den when i wake up my 2 bros all haven eat.. oh crap! damn fedup loh.. so old already.. becoz of computer games can dun eat.. den my bro insist on making breakfast for him.. realise i was late and i gotta make breakfast for them… not the first time i doing all this things for them.. and their thx to me are like thx and forget it already.. sian.. but after bathing i feel better.. haha.. hmm.. so went to paya lebar mrt station.. hmmm.. was 13 mins late.. haha.. but lucky they still there.. hmmm.. so went to the place of caroling.. actually thought they are handicap ppl.. but upon reaching they say they are also mentally handicap as well tho.. lol! hmm.. i dunno y i din feel really terrified as christina they all leh.. but quite scared of the lady who start asking how old are we when we are waiting to go in to carol.. tat was really scary man.. so when giving the towel tat time dare not go near her.. =X
so bad eh.. but scary leh.. haha.. neways after tat went out for dinner.. got steamboat! hehe.. so full.. and tired.. tml dunno the jog wif charmian at 8AM at reservoir still on anot.. so damn early leh.. haha.. feel tat im getting sick as well.. lol! hmm.. neways! today is charmian bday! so….

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMIAN! =)



okies! din know i said happy bday to her 2 times.. =x haha.. crap.. aiya.. dun care la.. lol.. gonna go hang laundries and shower and off to bed! hehe.. nitez nitez..


*ciao*

*dead tired*

okies! this time im really really reallu tired.. this accumulative tiredness is getting over me.. =.=
hmmm.. today i woke up at 810.. =.=
firstly, was to go jog as im getting fatter.. >.<
secondly.. was to prove to my mum wat i say i will do.. haha.. coz she keep saying i pig.. wont wake up one.. lol.. hmmm.. see.. determination can make one do this.. lol! hmm.. went to jog alone today.. lucky there’s music to accompany me while jogging.. haha.. or not i sure sian.. lol.. hmmm.. find tat im jogging so slow.. *.*
den after tat buy branch for my kor and me.. hmmm.. den being a good girl as i always am.. i do the laundries.. haha.. =x bHb.. lol..
neways! wash all the levis jeans.. sian.. do until i more tired.. late afternoon go buy charmian’s present and christmas present for exchange.. hmm.. thought of some crazy things for charmian.. haha.. but.. in the end din buy la.. lol! hmmm.. crap.. wrap a present so difficult.. haha.. hmmm.. 1 more hr to her bday.. lol.. neways! here’s an early bday song!

Happy bday to euu…
happy bday to euu..
happy bday to CHARMIAN! =x
happy bday to ya!


at last 16 eh? lol.. waited for so long already.. haha.. and its ur last time to do wat a 16 cannot do.. =x
haha.. neways! hmmm.. getting tired liao.. =.=
eyes closing.. tml still got christmas airway.. lol.. not sure whether wanna bring charmian’s present anotz.. dunno she coming.. hmmm.. den some more got dinner.. =/
gonna sleep and rest le.. nitez nitez..





*ciao*

hotel stay for 1 nite

yay! back from hotel stay liao.. hmm.. was quite boring la.. coz onli 1 nite.. tats y i din go online as well.. haha..
18th dec
after church service den go home le.. pack my things den wait for my wols kor to pack his bag.. hmm.. actually should leave at 2 but we left at 3.. hmmm… den take mrt.. thought is at orchard.. den when we tap our card out to orchard tat time.. den my mum call.. -.-
dun wan call earlier.. waste $$$.. lol.. den take back to city hall.. coz its at marina mandarin not meritus mandarin.. sian.. hmmm.. reach there le den go to the room liao.. went in thought we go wrong room.. coz my cousin de aunt and family in the room.. scare me for one sec.. =x
haha.. den after tat settle down le den go for swim liao.. so damn tired.. last nite sleep very late.. den wake up at 810 den prepare to go church.. lol.. so swim awhile liao starting to get tired le.. haha.. den went up to rest on the chair but i din expect myself to fall asleep.. lol.. den after tat woke up by my stupid hair.. coz the wind blow den my hair keep tickling my face.. -.-
haha.. den go down swim till 730.. den go back shower den go eat le.. haha.. went to eat yoshi! hehe.. hmm.. was quite familiar wif the place coz went there wif someone 2 to 3 times? =)
hmmm.. dunno y feel happy during the stay.. haha.. hmmm.. den after tat shop awhile den go back le.. din sleep till 230… =.=
coz play cards den my bro watch WWE.. haha.. cant imagine i watch eh.. haha.. hmmm.. cant sleep well actually.. but i really got sleep la.. haha.. coz hor.. i put my hand behind my head.. so will be higher.. hehe.. sianz..

19th dec
hmmm… see i sleep so late rite.. but once my hp alarm rang at 810 den i cant sleep le.. tried to continue to sleep but wake up every 40mins.. =.=
hmmm.. den watch baby looney tune.. hehe.. coz there got cartoon network.. lol.. den so damn tired.. after tat went to eat liao.. ate at chinese restaurant.. so damn full i tell u.. almost puke everything out.. after tat check out liao.. haha.. hmmm.. today was fun actually.. coz got alot of laughter.. hehe.. jokes la i mean.. =)
den after tat go orchard shop wif my er yi.. lol.. hmmm.. she strike 4D.. haha.. and got 3000 bucks! omg.. how i wish i got the money.. den she told my bros, me and my cousin alvin to choose jeans to buy.. haha.. the first thing tat came to my mind was LEVIS! haha.. yupz.. i always wanted a levis jeans all along and i got it! hehe.. so i dun need waste my money on levis jeans liao.. hehe.. so happy.. lol! bought a 593 jeans.. lol.. should be la.. haha.. its a low waist bootcut jeans… hehe.. so nice.. =)
den after tat shop till around 630 den go eat again.. omg.. so full den still go eat.. went to eat crab, mee, yam paste, tiger prawns, vege, fish.. omg.. alot loh.. im really getting fatter each day.. if i still dun exercise i tink im not gonna lose weight liao.. hmmm.. gonna jog tml morning.. but cant find ka ke to jog wif me.. hmm.. tink tml jog myself liao.. coz bro got band.. kor work.. den left me alone again.. haha.. so shall go jog.. hmmm.. ok la.. gonna shower soon le.. so stinko..=X
lol.. tml shall blog again.. nitez nitez.. =)






*ciao*

fun!

hehe.. im back! lol.. hmmm.. trying to use white to write on the white blank.. haha.. sian.. hmmm.. today la.. woke up at 9.. lol.. alarm did ring.. but cannot wak up.. so damn tired.. lol.. ytd chat till my eyes almost close.. =/
den wake up le den go out lo… sian.. go take breakfast wif my cousin and family b4 go to his tuition centre wif him.. i really regret man! the pay was like 800 per month ONLI! sian.. and i needa slog for 8 hrs everyday.. den if i take leave they will dock my pay!!!! OMG!!! i dun understand y i so stupid to get the job from my cousin.. sian.. damn crap man.. den onli 2nd jan needa work le.. 1030 to 630 everyday.. den gotta work on sat as well sometimes.. sian.. sun maybe afternoon.. and the pay is 800!!!! damn shyt.. i really wanna quit the job but cant.. coz its like my cousin ask me go den go.. damn it man! i really now regret leh.. sian.. someone help me.. teach me how to dun go for the job.. sian.. i really regret liao.. =(
haiz.. teach me someone.. teach me how to dun go the job.. give wat excuse.. =/
hai.. den after tat rush for the christmas airway caroling.. reach yio chu kang mrt station den proceed to ang mo kio hospital liao.. carol in hospital was fun and not as boring as i thought tho.. haha.. coz i was tinking if carol at hospital rite.. like the patient wont like it.. coz disturb them sleep.. =x
but to my surprise was that they really appreciate it and when we gave them a cheapo towel they still thx us.. hahaz.. =x
really glad la.. den when we go pasir ris park to carol no one come see us sing.. haha.. quite disappointing.. but den had lots fun there.. lol.. i tink i really spend my time usefully tho.. haha.. it really brighten ups my day.. hehe.. ok la.. chatting liao.. tata..

*ciao*