pathetic

hmm.. this yr chinese new yr is jus so pathetic! tats the onli word i can say.. firstly.. there is no chinese new yr atmosphere.. even u can see lightings around.. set ups and decors around but the feeling for chinese new yr is not there.. =/
secondly.. i tink all becoz of govt this yr hong bao oso lessen liao.. =X
hmmm.. yupz.. count onli got 100 over bucks going to $200.. how pathetic can it be.. hmmm.. ok.. shall not talk bout it anymore.. hmmm…


CNY eve oso not happy.. sian.. all becoz of family matters.. haha.. every yr like tat ba.. haiz.. dun tink can ever change.. coz every yr needa rush to 2 places.. one is my ah ma house.. the other is my wai po house.. where got ppl go to ah ma house le jus to eat and jus go off after eating.. hmmm.. sian.. den after tat wait for my didi to eat le den blah blah blah.. shall not continue… hmmm.. neways den reach my wai po house at around 950.. coz waited for a cabby for 20-30 mins.. hmmm… first time so long.. neways slept at 2.. all becoz my clothes de cabinet was so messy.. so decided to pack a lil.. but there is too many clothes.. and mostly not all is mine.. hmmm…





neways! chu yi.. hmmm… woke up and went for service.. yupz.. its a SUNDAY! hmmm.. over there hear a speaker’s sermon.. hmmm.. now i couldnt remember wat he say liao.. den over there service ended early.. over there oso get quite a number of hong baos.. =)
yupz.. den all becoz of my heels.. both ends of my small toe got blister.. and its so painful.. so suay rite.. wear heels den like tat.. den reach home change to converse shoes and went off to my ah ma house le.. so many ppl there.. yupz.. and there’s cousin gathering.. =)
we were talking.. had a great time there.. den after tat go my wai po house le.. reach there all small children.. hmmm.. den my mum, 2 bros and me slept there.. coz everyone all very tired.. haha.. yupz.. till around 610 den left for my ah ma house le.. tinking back i feel so bad.. reach there talk a lil den go sleep den wake up leave.. >.<
neways.. reach my ah ma house le den they played cards.. hmmm.. at first lost 6 bucks but in the end lost onli 2 bucks.. neways.. i still lost.. =X
hmmm.. tats the end of my chu yi liao.. =)))



today is chu er.. but its so sian… hmmm… went to my simei wai po house.. yupz.. i got 2 wai po.. neways every yr will have lunch there.. coz i slept at 2 again.. >.<
den wake up le everything rush.. coz so many ppl needa shower u know.. =)
den after tat eat le den proceed to my san ku ma house.. yupz.. most of my cousins were there already tho.. and are eating.. haha..being full.. decided to sit at a corner.. do nutting.. =/
hmmm.. they wanted to go kbox.. but i dun feel like going.. dun have the mood there.. den my cousin keep asking.. hmmm.. dragged till i reach my mama house.. visit her.. been a long time since i visited her at the hospital.. hmmm.. seeing her getting better le.. feeling happy for her.. hmmm.. been eating all the junk food.. but lucky not much.. dunno y this yr eat so little.. =X
hmmm.. yupz.. den after tat go my ah ma house le.. told them i dun feel like going.. tink they like not happy.. neways.. go my ah ma house again.. had dinner there.. saw my cousin de gf.. hmmm. shock to hear tat she oso from NS one.. hmmm.. a gurl in NS.. haha.. neways.. reach home le den do nutting le.. maple and watch teebee.. hmmmm..





dunno wat’s going on wif me either.. jus no mood for stuff.. see my blogs i dunno issit i getting sad everytime.. hmmm.. where is the old me.. i tink the old me is still not very mature yea? hmmm.. the new me starts to tink far too… hmmm.. too far till i dunno how to stop and wat to do.. hmmm… a matter to ponder upon? =)









*ciao* lalalalalalaalalalalalalalalala~~~~~~~

*busy*

yupz.. this few days very tired and busy.. everyday work and work and work.. wanna make some time to go for the netball matches to support my junior.. sian.. really really wan.. but i needa work.. haiz.. sick of work now.. jus onli work 1 month and im really sick of working.. crap!
neways.. i forgot to record down when i work overtime.. sian.. den dunno i can get my OT pay anot.. sian.. or not i work for free.. >.<
sian.. neways.. i miss all my juniors, frens, and lots and lots.. hmm.. jus wanna be wif them everyday and spend our time enjoying ourselves.. haha.. but too bad ba.. cant le.. so peeps out there.. if ya are still in secondary skool live ur life out there to the best.. make it memoriable man! haha.. hmmm.. work is sick! work is tough! work is crap! work is rubbish! work suck! work is shit! work is all NEGATIVE! haha.. ok.. im nuts.. work really jus suck.. hmmm.. neways.. cant maple so much oso.. =/
so long nvr use com.. onli long long time once.. sian.. neways.. did anyone of u miss me? =X










*ciao* *toot toot*

hmmm… back from outing.. tp open house was quite boring.. =.=
neways.. the open house not tat interesting.. haha.. hmm.. tats all loh.. watched the memoirs of geisha.. hmmm.. interesting i can say.. but some parts are quite boring.. hmmm… no bs.. meilan got primary skool de gathering.. den coach quite busy.. so cancel le.. neways.. now headache.. needa sleep.. today was a bad bday celebration.. =( tata…






*ciao* gonna have a personal blog soon~~ =)

yo yo ppl =)

ok! hmmm.. long long long long time din blog le.. was busy wif work everyday.. everyday goes to JCS to sell the graphic calculators.. hmmm.. everytime around 740 needa wake up.. den everyday sleep at 1215.. how am i gonna survive.. >.<
yupz.. today took leave.. coz got TP and SP open house.. wanna go see see… but so so far..
neways… this month so many ppl de bday.. first was mich.. haha.. yupz.. we went to marina bay to eat steamboat.. but i tink we all did had fun… took 17 kind of food for her.. haha.. hmmm… fun la.. hehe.. =)
hmmm.. den today xj bday.. so going to open house den go watch movie.. forgot the name le.. oh.. its Memoirs Of A Geisha… hehe.. hmmm.. den gonna have dinner… neways not very sure if bible study is still on.. coz coach is so so busy.. hmmm..
den 27 my mum’s bday.. haven get my pay yet.. dunno wat to buy for her.. =/
den 30 my kor bday le.. on CNY.. >.<
sure hong bao big big one.. haha.. nvm.. lol! neways.. everyday work till minimum at 730 maximum at 9.. so can u imagine.. haha.. ok la.. goplay maple le.. tata!








*ciao* =)

feeling terrible.. haiz..

hmmm.. today went to sunday service as usual.. actually wanted to go for my netball carnival wif my juniors.. but last nite slept too late.. slept at 1 plus.. and the bus is fetching them to kallang netball centre at 650 opp. skool.. hmm.. so i tink i cant wake up and make it.. so…… decided to go for service instead.. hmm.. there’s a speaker for the service today and he talked bout spiritual weariness.. hmm… service was ok.. den feel like sleeping.. coz im tired.. but i remembered wat uncle lee seng said during youth.. commented on our bad points.. hmm.. so like when i wanna sleep i was reminded.. so stayed awake throughout.. hmm.. neways came home den started to do spring cleaning.. is like i tink i dunno i visited the rubbish chute how many times le.. already tired le.. now im more tired.. my mood oso damned.. haiz. hmmm..

firstly.. my mum.. i jus dunno wat to do.. i feel im in jail sometimes.. everything i must report to her.. every detail.. im really sick and tired le.. haiz.. she dun trust me.. go out wif a guy oso tink too much.. tell her tat i going out in a group she oso dun believe.. thought i go out wif guy.. haiz.. i dunno.. the trust word is too hard to believe i guess.. she control my freedom too much.. im now like going to 17 this yr.. and im so controlled.. y cant she jus trust me.. haiz.. i jus dun understand.. i feel so pressurized by her..

secondly.. i shall call the person zhu tou ba.. hmmm.. i jus dunno wats going on.. 2 days we din sms.. i did miss u.. hmm.. but…. haiz.. i dun mean to say words to hurt u.. i dunno wat im doing now also.. im jus in such a foul mood tat a little things i can flare up.. but i still control.. i tink not many ppl had seen me flare up till they are scared of me ba.. haiz.. everthing i tried to control.. but my mum control me.. haiz.. sometimes i dunno how to open up to u.. its like i dun wanna hurt u again.. haiz.. my fren said bout something.. i dunno wat to do.. and i had 3 confirmation from ppl.. this things are all against our things.. i dunno whether to listen.. my feelings are so lost now.. i dunno which one to choose.. which one to follow.. haiz.. things are getting complicated.. tried to let u leave me… sometimes i hope u do.. so u would not have to suffer.. im jus a bird locked up in a cage by my mum.. i told u alot of things tat i cant.. but u still hold on.. haiz.. i dunno wat to do.. im really lost and confuse.. deep down in me im calling for help but no one could hear or answer.. haiz.. wats going on now.. i soon gonna breakdown.. haiz.. tink im getting emotional recently.. needa stop all this.. haiz.. i hope i can and i will be able… too many problems and stress tat i cannot let off.. haiz..

neways tml needa reach eunos mrt station at 820.. gotta wake up early.. sian.. tata.. nitez…












*ciao* ~~~ take me to a place where the word unhappiness, stress, worries, and problems did not exist..~~~ haisSs..

stuck up wif work.. =(

yupz.. im so stuck up at work.. sian.. soOOooOOOooo long nvr touch my blog and computer.. =/
hmmm… now everyday work till 740 den can go home.. going to so many JCS.. needa do so many accounting.. driving me nuts.. hmmm.. jus came back from work today.. actually sat no work become got work liao.. hmmm.. neways mapling time.. lazy to update le.. =X
maple more important.. tata…








*ciao* -take away my work… =/

updates

hmm.. got nutting much to update bout.. its jus work play sleep work play sleep.. haha.. yupz.. hmm.. lucky today no work.. so went to play bball… hmm.. actually at pasir ris de court.. but raining.. and heard from meilan tat this rain gonna rain for at least 2 weeks~!! hmmm.. yea man.. how bad can it be.. sian.. neways bball was fun today.. i played match wif other ppl.. guess wat.. my leg got blister le.. haha.. and the blister is the size of my thumb.. =.=
so damn pain la.. haiz.. hmm.. coz i wore slippers to play instead of shoe.. sian.. den got 1 thai gurl was oso in the other team.. so i and her was like defending each other tat kind.. hehe.. im lucky i got my netball defend skills.. Xp
yea.. den went for dinner wif my bro.. bought his shoes for new yr and a shirt.. look quite nice la.. haha.. hmmm.. abit down this few days.. dunno wat happen as well.. >.<
haiz.. neways! gotta go sleep le.. coz tml needa reach marsling mrt station de bus stop at 11AM! hmm.. dunno which skool we are going.. den cannot wear shoes liao all due to my blister.. oh man…… =/
hmmm.. tats all folks.. sleeping time! tata…










*ciao* *blister plz go away~~* *sobz*

First YOUTH of the year.. =)

hmmm.. today woke up at 1115.. haha.. first time sleeping till so late.. but have not fill back my accumulated tiredness.. =X
haha.. hmmm.. lucky my mum went out le.. so i can play my maple.. haha.. at last lvl 19 onli.. sian.. my didi so fast.. he now 16 liao.. crap.. neways.. play till 315.. den go shower le.. haha..

okies! first youth of the year.. hmm.. quite fun la.. haha.. ice breaker games are funny.. haha.. hmmm.. neways bible study oso the group still ok la.. hmmm.. the older ones wif gabriel.. younger ones wif uncle lee seng… hmmm.. quite nice la.. haha.. after tat got chatting in the refreshment room wif charmian meilan sophia and victoria while charissa vacuum the floor.. haha.. so sad no one help her.. neways! after tat went to CS food court to take dinner wif them.. hmmm.. jus got major prob wif my mum.. she is like dun trust me or watever la.. hmm.. i dunno y as well..

neways! i know tml will be a good day… gonna have church tml.. hehe.. nitez nitez.. =)






*ciao*

third day of job.. slack man!

hmmm… when can i have a good rest? sian.. everyday sleep after 12.. wake up at 8.. so so so tired.. den go work.. spend so much $$$.. haha.. earn onli 800 bucks… hmmm.. tink i will use not enough as well.. lol.. hmmm.. guess wat.. in office i onli do the stamping.. on the cards.. hmmm.. today stamp 2800 copies.. lucky tml going to MUS high and ACSI to sell the graphic calculators.. haha.. sian.. den now going to sleep soon le.. nvr maple.. so sad.. =/
hmmm..







*ciao* OnLy LoNeLy~~~~~

i love school~!

hmmm.. so tired everyday.. work and work and work.. sian.. last time tink that study and must go skool is so sian.. now i see ppl go skool i sad man… haha.. and i mean really la.. miss my frens, miss some teachers.. haha.. but i dun miss the skool and the principal.. =x
haha.. neways.. now gonna work so damn tired.. hmm.. last nitez slept at 12 plus again i tink.. so tired.. today wake up at 810.. can u imagine~! accumulated tiredness is driving me nuts! go work do the same thing.. stamp the cards.. haha.. guess u guys dun understand.. ok! hmmm.. coz im helping to sell graphic calculators to JCS.. coz the company i working is like sort of the sole distributor of the calculators.. man.. tats a good experience.. u know y? coz the parents there are like so rich ass! so pamper their child.. buy all the xXx calculators.. and u know wat.. the cheapest calculator is 109 bucks.. =.=
hmmm.. neways.. back to topic… hmmm… alone for lunch again.. ate mac.. haha.. waste $$$.. >.<
hmmm.. den do some stuff till 615 loh.. den home sweet home liao.. =D
haha.. sian.. reach home needa do house work.. hmmm.. now gonna maple liao.. =)
play awhile den needa do the remaining house work den wanna sleep lo.. haha..








*ciao*