wat a bad tuesday.

im going nuts soon.
i really want everything to stop.
and this includes my brain.

right. and there was a fly tat flew into my right ear?!!
damn. im like bloody scared okie.
i keep hearing the fly fly sound.
yup. i tried drowning it in my ear while bathing.
i hope it dies and roll out of my ear by tml morning.

yea. im just freaking tired now. its like 1st august already.
i want to sleep for 13hrs! ):

neways!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIHAN. (:

SP match won. 59 – 30

what so great even we have won the game.
some aint happy bout it.
i mean its like. yes yes.
u can say that everyone has a fault.
but please look at the rational side okie.
im not siding anyone here.

u want to talk things out.
find me. ill be your listener.
its not the end of the world.
its not that the whole world hates you.
i really dont know how to explain.
fuck it.

no mood to do my presentation.
im just gonna screw it up.

rest day!

time check: 2:55am

right. time for blogging.
been doing evaluation criteria for 3hrs.
finally im kinda done.
left with weighing which i dunno how to do.

today was not a very good day i guess.
many happenings to talk bout.
many things which are left unsaid.
yeah.
but its rest day today!
be glad. D

school starts at 10 later.
wonder if i should go home to do my cmsk.
not done and i dunno how to do. tell me how!
i hope i dun have to touch projects now.
giving me the headaches.

match tml. again.
sickly ppl off for match.
WOOHOO!

at the cross – hillsongs

Oh Lord You’ve searched me,
You know my way;
Even when I fail You,
I know You love me.

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

At the cross I bow my knee,
Where Your blood was shed for me,
There’s no greater love than this.
You have overcome the grave,
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now?

You go before me,
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me;
I know You love me.

And when the earth fades,
Falls from my eyes,
And You stand before me,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

You tore the veil, You made a way
When You said that it is done.

darkness is all i could see.
how i wish that somewhere out there there’s a stream of light.
hands are unreachable in the deep valley of darkness.

i dont want to see it happening.
i dont want to see the broken-ness in us.
i dont want to lose everything in one day.

i want to pray but i have lost the faith.
i cannot bring myself to believe that You can.
i did not sense You with me anymore.

i wonder why is it me.
why is it this happening.
why the broken-nesss.
why the heartache.

i guess i had a long runaway from it.
its time to face it with the big blow afterall.
its time where everything is gone.

i have lost all the courage, the faith, the believe.
i really need You now.
Your pillar of support, Your hope.
i thank You for my younger brother.
thank You for the comfort i had.

sat sat

yea. nothing much.
training in the morning.
tsk tsk.
isnt great at all.
low morale, low spirit.
hmm.

yea. went for lunch and stuff.
agree with sk that we are lacking of the fire in us.
the burning desire to chiong for it.
yea. how! =/

im dead tired.
down with sore throat and flu.
tink its due to all the screaming on thurs.
wat to take?
wheee~

great!

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is str”

– Arnold Schwarzeneggerength.

“Winning is important to me, but what brings me real joy is the experience of being fully engaged in whatever I’m doing.”

– Phil Jackson

“It’s okay to lose; just don’t lose the lesson.”

– George Lucas

“Winners make it happen. Losers let it happen.”

– George Lehmann

“The challenge of every team is to build a feeling of oneness, of dependence on one another because the question is usually not how well each person performs, but how well they work together.”

– Vince Lombardi

“Our goal is not to win. It’s to play together and play hard. Then, winning takes care of itself.”

– Mike Krzyzewski

One man can be a crucial ingredient on a team, but one man cannot make a team.”

– Kareem Abdul-Jabbar

“The nice thing about teamwork is that you always have others on your side.”

– Margaret Carty

TGIF

school was sweet today.
good weather for me to sleep.
but guilt filled me when i realise i’ve been sleeping and not doing my project.
went to sch and had lunch.
WOOHOO! its jus cool.

back to IT sch to print notes which was this thick!
its like as if we attended school from 8 in the morning till 6 in the evening.
HA! right.
lecture was still same old boring.
chit chatted as usual. teehee!
homed and slacked.

ohs! dinner was so fabulous.
had nice “shows” to watch.

watching 1 insane indian picking a fight with a lonely indian drinker.
insane indian keep wanting to fuck the lonely drinker. -.-”
and he even shoot his cigarette butt at him. TSK!
den awhile later he ask the lonely drinker to fight. WOOHOO!
lame shit right. HAHA!

next was the ah pek with the family sitting at the next table.
its damn gross to see him using his hand to scratch his feet.
the stench of smell from his leg is already a turn off.
wat made it worse was he used the same hand to clean his face.
no wonder his face was so sparkling shiny.

right. great time spending with my bro and cousin.
eating prata and tissue prata and drinking teh. DD
its like as if i dun have any projects due and waiting to be completed.
*ABRAKAZAM*
projects are *poofED*

toodles!

dumb dumb

BOOO with all the shits of work i gotta do for my project.
BOOO with all the thinking that i have to do.
like slicing my brain cells away to get the information inside and to find out its empty inside.
BOOO with the dumb tp email i’ve received by my CP bout my attendance.
i freaking dun care.
im on the verge of just giving up my year 2.
it just suck i tell you.

yea yea.
everyone can blame it on me having too much time on bball.
but its the heart you see.
i have no more interest in studying.
i have no more interest in mugging for exams.
i have no more interest in doing my projects.
tsk tsk.

everything seems to be a rolling down valley.
my brain have been functioning very well.
but tinking about all the stupid shits.
i don’t wanna be pessimistic.
change my mind please!

even if i have the time in the world to do my stuff.
when the mind isnt there, everything is undone.
i cant focus, i cant concentrate.
i really need a runaway.
i just need a break from the reality shit.
any kind soul who will automatically understand what’s my project is about and do it for me?
pretty please?! =/

i can never have a proper sleep tinking about projects, my life, and everything.
tsk tsk.
im sucha tinker uh. HA.

i just need a ranting ear and listen to all my nonsensical and makes-no-sense words or even just to listen to my silence i have here.
sigh. will you?
do you have time for me?
do you feel how im feeling?

right. back to projects again.

lost RP. ):

right. today was jus a boring day.
FOI was as usually waste of time.
ohs! and i had grilled fish with rice again!
WOOHOO!!
yea. queued for like 20-30mins for it.

went to wait for some free dvd player so we can watch coach carter.
hmm. yea. say me a noob cake or watsoever.
first time watching.
but its jus cool okie.
i like the endurance.
while watching i tell you it really reminds me of coach lar!

went for match today.
tough fight girls.
yea. they are all short.
hmm. we still fumble when controlling the game.
but i love the cheers outside okie.
we still have to get the 2 games.
dun give up, dun lose faith, dun lose hope.
TP JIAYOU OKIE!

yup. watching tv now.
talking bout some single parenting hood thing.
many thoughts, many understanding.
neways. im just tired. (: